Time Away

I had an incredible time away this past week. I spent much quiet time in contemplative prayer and reading my Bible. I have to admit it took a bit to get used to the quiet. I don't think I realized how accustomed I have become to noise.

Many of you have asked what I heard God speaking to me. Well lately I have been struggling with relationships in my life. One specific relationship is that of being a mom to a teenager. I'm learning as a mom to him that I cannot choose his friends, I cannot make good choices for him, I cannot force him to be the man that I want him to be. And I really heard God saying that His ways are not my ways, Isaiah 55:8, and for good reason too.

If I desire for my children to live their life in accordance to God's plan then I must let go of my plans for them and allow God to be in control. I need to learn that I do not have control of so many things in my life but my Father does and He desires to work for my good, Romans 8:28 & Jeremiah 29:11

So I am going to be more intentional about seeking God's desire in my relationships. I'm going to make it a priority to not mold people (specifically my children) or relationships into what I want and just let God direct and guide. My hearts desire is that He be glorified in all relationships in my life. So often we perceive things as good or bad based off our limited earthly view when the Heavenly view might be completely opposite.

The other thing I really focused on this week was "Be still and know that I am God" Psalm 46:10. We get so busy and so wrapped up in our lives that sometimes we forget to just be still. To just come to Him and sit quietly in His presence. It doesn't mean that I need to spend all my days in a closet quietly waiting on Him, but I do need to be able to quiet my heart and my mind and just be still with Him. To be in the quiet and not need to be filled with noise and chaos.

To live my life knowing that He is God. To believe that He is whatever I need; comfort, love, peace, assurance, provision - and to live that truth. He is God of all things and will provide all that I need no matter how big or small. I felt as if He was saying even though I have been blessed with much He is sufficient and that ultimately everything else is insignificant. That if He were to offer me anything my only desire would be Him. He is unchanging and will be the one true constant in my life.

He sustains me and He loves me and that is all I need. My prayer for you is that you are able to live in this truth too. To thirst and hunger for Him and to be in love with Him. He is crazy about you, He is so in love with you. He doesn't want your religious acts, He simply wants you. He doesn't want your fancy words and lengthy prayers, he just wants you to be real with Him. He doesn't need you, He loves you. When you start to live out of that love you will be forever changed.